“Clara is just too sensitive!”
That’s what I heard my sister say about me for probably the millionth time in my life… after I just told her I was about to quit my job of 5 years because I could no longer handle the emotional toll it took on me.
I was working an admin position for a completely toxic employer. And between my boss being a narcissist and his “minions” at work (plus the clients I was trying to help), it took everything out of me… and I became disabled.
But those last few years were hardly the only time I’ve dealt with such intense feelings.
Prior to that position, I spent most of my life working as a licensed aesthetician. I was doing chakra balancing and energy work for decades before its recent explosion in popularity over the internet.
Even back then though, I immediately noticed that some clients would suck the energy out of me like vampires. Even if they were the first client of the day, I’d be too exhausted to continue on once I finished with them…
When just laying my hands on one of these clients to do a Facial, I could feel the energy exchange between us. And it had a major negative effect on my mood.
It was extremely difficult to deal with…
Don’t get me wrong though, I do appreciate who I am - along with the compassion and intuition I have. I love that I’m an empath rather than whatever the heck is going on with half of humanity right now…
It may sound funny to say, but I do care for people… It’s just so hard to be around many of them as crowds, inauthenticity, and arguing tend to bring me down.
Add in the global events over the last few years along with an overbearing employment situation, and I’ve really been pushed to my breaking point.